I find myself getting bored with a new project again.
I went into it with great enthusiasm. I was excited about the plot, a few of the characters and the overall creepy tone I was going to have fun writing.
Two days into the research and I'm wishing I had picked something different.
Its not that the information or the topics are boring, I think I'm just scared I won't do it all justice. If I get 'bored' and leave now, I can't finish and be yelled at later.
I'm not going to leave you before you leave me. Its a New Year. Not everyone will love me if I write the most beloved book ever. Even if the critics and public agree and its a runaway best-seller (shh, reality later) and hit movie and tv series. Some people will hate it...just because.
I'm not writing for anyone but myself so why am I letting circumstances that will always be completely out of my control affect the project at THIS state?
I'm wondering if there are therapists strictly for creative types?
For now, I'm going to give it a few days more (of research) and then fill in the 'outline'. I will make myself write at least 30 pages before I give up. I'm hoping I find myself needing to continue at that poing.